48 Days Sober

I am still here, proud that I am plugging along...

New Year's Eve will be 2 months sober and I feel that this is a fitting way to start off the new year.  I am setting myself up to make 2012 the year of my "rebirth."  I have been trying to get my body, mind, and soul on the same page so that I can start next year off right and make it something I can look on with pride and see it as a time of growth.

My biggest priority right now is staying sober.  I have not been to any more meetings but so far I am ok with that.  I have not had a drop of alcohol since quitting and I can only thank God for keeping me focused on a better life with Him.  I have come out to many of my friends and I think that has been a huge help for me.  People have been fairly accepting and except for the awkward, "you are not drinking?" at the beginning of a night out, everyone seems to let it go quickly and most of my evenings have gone pretty smoothly.  Of course I miss the feeling of being buzzed but so far keeping myself accountable to people and staying committed to my goals of bettering myself have kept me on the course.  I have faith that I have laid a foundation for future sobriety and that it should get easier the farther out I am from this. 

My next goal for the new year is taking care of my body.  I feel that this goes hand in hand with my newfound lease on cleaner living and I want my body to reflect that.  Every year since college I have been talking about losing a couple of pounds and toning up and I want this to be the year that I actually follow through.  I feel like this next year is about me before we talk about starting a family and I am just excited to be the best that I can be.  I want to work on eating cleaner and stepping up my exercise.  I want to cut out more of the artificial crap and really focus on feeling good.  Before I would do well during the week and go out and binge on alcohol and food all weekend and now that I have cut out the alcohol part the food part remains.  I think that I can work on both now that I have a better handle on the drinking part.  Hopefully I have enough willpower to go around!

Next I have been really focused on God and how He is working in me and my life.  I have been singing at church and I am getting so much out of it.  There is just nothing better than belting out a song and feeling the Holy Spirit working.  I know it is partially selfish since I get so much enjoyment out of it but I hope that maybe my enthusiasm will spill over into those listening and help them feel as good hearing it as I do singing it.  Also, getting up early on Sunday morning is one more reason to stay sober on Saturday night, and lets face it, the more the merrier when it comes to reasons to keep away from the beer!!!

Anyway, I pray that the end of the year goes smoothly for us and I look forward to starting fresh on January 1st.  It will be nice to start the new year off on a positive note instead of a hangover!  :)