A Letter to my Husband

There is a rift between us and I want to fix it.  You are distant and cold are have been spending more and more time away from the house.  I hate it.  I want to feel connected, like you care about me and that you want this to work out better between us.  I want you to look at me with love, not resentment.  I want you to respect me and I want to respect you in return.  I think that all of this back and forth about your issues has stemmed from you not respecting me.  I think that you keep all of that from me because you don't care about me enough to want to be a good guy for me.  I want you to want to be kind to me, laugh with me, spend time with me.  I will do what it takes to earn that back.  I will work at this until is becomes second nature, until you respect me enough that I can finally deserve your love.  I want a happy future and I want it to be with you.  I want a husband that will hold my hand and that gives me praise instead of cutting me down.  I don't want it to be a tug of war anymore.  I am too tired and sad to fight.  I cannot stand the indifference.  I want hope.  I pray that time can give us that.  I will do everything in my power to make that happen for us.  I love you and I am sorry that I was not the person you thought I was and I want to be that person again for you.  I will find her, I promise.  I will do work if you will only hang on long enough to see it happen.  Please love me.